i'm posting a post, and like finally.


today, i just slacked like for so long, at lez's studio. well, i just want to say thank you to sharmaine, yon, kyle, lez for their awesome accompany. i'll try to do that bus-stop thing soon, i'm excited about it anyway.


well, remember. remind me that i'm bless. well, having able to figure out and make my mind "tong" was awesome, throw away those devil-thoughts and put in some holy ones. ;D and, this just made my day. i can finally face everything with my pretty smile again!



but still. mummy just called me and asked me about by future 10+K. it is a huge sum of money, well. to my family. to those wealthy ones, fuck off.

alright, its kinda pathetic to know that my family doesnt even has damn 10K extra for other purposes. well, i just agreed to my "investment". i might not get it back, and. she's hoping that i do but ofcause, i hope that i get it back too!

well, it was indeed hard on her. she worked so hard all day, but it was just enough to feed our damn mouths and force us go shopping. there was never extra cash for emergency or what-so-ever. but all she cared was, whether we have eaten, do we have enough clothes and got what we want.

i always think that, she's so nice. she once told me, she felt really bad to work all day and not spend time with us. so, she's giving her best for us. ensuring that we never lose out from other children. it has been really hard for her, and. what did she do that she needs to take care of extra 3 children! i'm like her youngest child, and thought that she might not need to work that hard anymore or even take a break. but, she's loaded with another 3 more.

when she spoke to me about bad she felt when she cant spend time with us since young, i just felt like crying and hugging her, telling her its okay. we understand. because, all her hardwork and efforts are obvious.

i believe, she considered very long before asking me for my money. it was obvious as she hesitated before asking. she was afraid that i'll be pissed, but she understands. she knows that it's going to be unfair for me, so. i know. she has no choice. she must be so bothered by this, she told me she's scared that this might cause our family relationship to have problem. but i believe its a risk that she wants to take for the sake of our well-being.

its all because of our sake, thank you. i love you mummy. i really do.




although, my plans for my 10K goes down the damn drain. but yes. i believe, its God's work. not for my 10k to go down the drain but preparing me for net-breaking, boat sinking harvestsssss. amen!


well, to cut the story short, its not very long anyway. last sunday was my church's miracle seed sunday, where we put money into this envelop and trust God for harvest, for 10, 100, 1000 or even more times, because i've got a big God! but! i only has 10 pathetic bucks with me and, i gave all i could without considering my dinner. and i told Daddy, i want to give more and harvest more. so, i believe this 10K is His work. He's setting me up for greater blessing and GREATER HARVEST! AMEN! like totally~. ;D



Just bless my family and i dont care if i get it back or not. i want shalom, health, happiness and ka ching ka ching~ for them!.
i dont limit, cause He's so big and capable of giving me the unlimited suppliessss. oh my, manicure and shopping everyweeek! hahahah. weee, i dare to dream cause i've got a REAL GOD that sweeps me off my feet.


alright, school might be boring! but i've alr skipped lessons. opppps! i didnt did it on purpose, just couldnt catch the plane back from lala land. ah, crap.



good night people, my plane is taking off soon. takecare! i'll bring you gifts from Paris tonight, and give you tml morning! gooood nights people!





i know, You'll never forsake me cause You've stayed by me for so long and pushes all my downs up and love me, like totally. Daddy, i await for my net-breaking, boat sinking harvest! Hallelujah!;D






GABRIELSOH! you're totally lovely. ;D