i'm not competing against time, but. i'm walking with time.

my Daddy created time, therefore, He controls time, and so. when Daddy is with me, who will be against me? (:

i've decided to attend arrow camp. and scream with me! :D

i'm excited, totally. because i'm trusting God, that it'll be good, awesome, great, fun, memorable, with every adjectives that'll describe awesome. last year, i came out of EJ2, different. this year. i'm going to come out of Arrow adventure camp, different once again.

initially, when i got the news that its an adventure camp, the first thing i told Daddy is. "i'm not going". i'm asking Him. i thought i wanted a HM SEVEN?! the Perfect History Maker! but! why this now?!

i had been complaining. Daddy, I WANT TO ENJOY! its only my second year of Church camp. and why! i want more of EJ2 thingys!

but, this question came into my mind. "How do you know that adventure camp wont be funnnnn?, Who is your fun and excitement?"

well, Jesus is. so, no matter what camp it is. i know, i'll enjoy it. because Jesus will be there. its not about the camp. its all about Jesus. and now, i'm going there. because i want to spend time with Jesus. 4D3N. may be VERY LONG for a adventure camp, but its VERY SHORT for the time spent with Jesus.

but! on the other hand, adventure camp lei. the thought of kayak, rock-climbing, doing morning PTs, turns me off. totally. but, i'm going for Jesus. so, i'm trusting Him. No this kind of stuffs! =/

trust God with me. i know, i'll leave that camp, once again. amazed by the love of God, astounded by His amazing grace. and. shining in the Glory of Jesus. and i say, AMEN to alll of these.


anyway. enough of that. somehow, things that happened this week right? it feels like, Daddy is hinting me, that i'm neglecting the important things, especially Him.

i havent been spending time with the word, havent been listening to the word, havent been talking much to Him. i felt like, i'm repeating the same thing every day. i tell Him the same things, and it feels like a routine more than a conversation, i felt that. i lost Him.

BUT! i'm glad that i've got a squiddddd! hahaha! i'm so proud of squid. He is the one, who constantly reminds me that Daddy loves me. he reminds me of Daddy constantly, somehow, in our conversation he'll bring out Daddy. which means, he sees me as a child of God. and i know, Daddy is still with me.

even squid sees me as a child of God. i'm asking myself, then why am i not recognising that i'm Daddy's beloved? why am i not bringing myself as one?!

i'm not any normal human being walking down any street, i'm a child of God, the creator of human beings! i'm not only His child, i'm His beloved! and why the heck i'm not behaving as one?!


Charis sent this email to us and wants us to refer to New Creation's website. the first time i open up her mail, i read through the contents, and didnt bother to click on the link. the second time was the same, but the third time. i didnt read her mail because i need to know information, i read because, i knew. i had this urge to read the verse on the church's website.

and when i read it. i know, Daddy is telling me. " Love me, like you had loved me like before"

i loved Daddy, because, i experienced His great love. and for the past few posts, i've been telling Daddy, i love you, i love you, i love you. but those were just merely words, with no feelings.

and i remembered hearing from the word, its not about my love for Him, but its about His love for me! and i kept telling myself that, "just need to know that Daddy loves me, and that's good enough." BUT! i know, Daddy wants my love too. He who welcomes me back to His kingdom, He who loves me so much and wants me to accept Him. and i believe, He wants love from me too. imagine loving someone, and giving so much, and yet all the person did was just to say thank you from her mouth and not heart, tell me, how will you feel? you'll want love from that person too right?

something that squid told me that touches my heart - "I'm proud to have you, a child of God lei! GOD LEI! i'm bless to have you"
i loved the way he emphasized that i'm a child of God(:


http://www.newcreation.org.sg/resources/dailydevotion/dailydevo.asp

spend some time reading!(:

and, set your love upon Jesus, because, i'm setting my love upon Jesus too! :D


I"M DONE,

spend time listening to my blog song too. catch that phrase, " there is nothing better than knowing, we're redeemed"

i'm telling you. its TRUE. :D

and now, today, i'm telling Daddy! WO AI NI! these are words from my heart, because, i'm touched by Your love(:
the way, You sent Your child to cross, for me. You never left me even when i neglected You. and. You ARE there, when i cry, and You cried with me. Daddy, thank You. i love You, and truly do.

GABRIEL SOH! :D thank you, for seeing me as a child of God. thank you for your love. you are. indeed a blessing to me. Je t'aime, Je t'aime, Je t'aime! :D