i love my mum! ( :



as you all know, i dont stay with my mummy. but, everyday, she'll try to call me. but sadly, she always call at the wrong time. sighs, and i always talk to her in a "can-you-please-hang-up-soon" tone. sighs, i wont want to do that again. may be she noticed or something. she sms-ed me tonight instead. she asked if i slept already, and the usual question - what time is my lesson tml. well, i replied. ( : then, i was telling her that i want to open a chalet for my birthday this year, and she said, " i already ask auntie to book already" HAHAHA. i told her before lah, well, at least she remembers ( : well, well, then we msg here and there. then she ask me to decide where i want it and stuff. well, i believe, that's how my birthday going to be this yr! weeeeeeeeeee. that's what i've always wanted. not really though, there's one more but i shall not say. *shy. HAHAHA



alrights, then, she was once again, asking me to work hard. and i told her about what i've thought. i was thinking about this for a long time. for my course, the only place i can go after poly, is Australia. therefore, i was telling her that i dont know if i should work hard for scholoarship to go for further studies there. she just said one sentence, and its enough. "ok, try your best, i will support you" that's it. its enough. sometimes, to daddy and mummy out there, you dont need to talk alot. just a few words of encouragement, its enough for your baby to love you so so so much. yes, i love my mummy! but i always dont tell her. =X we're always like " aiya, know jiu hao lah". but, i dont agree with that, however, im not able to do it. -.- i believe one day, i will. maky, you will too( : we'll both hug our mummy everyday and tell them that we love them. one day, we'll be able to. :D

yup, then i replied, telling her that, well, im scared, i dont want to go overseas alone and stuff, and you know what. she simply just said, "scared for what?! be strong like me" and thoughts came in. yes, my mummy was strong and now, she still is. despite my useless earthly daddy, she's able to bring the three of us up with her own hands. none of us smoke, none of us have police records, just that we pon-ed school. lol. and, she dont add stress to us like other parents usually do. everytime she'll just tell us, as long as you did your best. and, when we didnt do well, she'll simply just say, try harder next time. she never sets high expectations. at first, i thought, "aiya, she dont care one lah". but no, she just dont want us to be stress. i think she's afraid that we commit sucide like other stress-up kids.

i remember sec2 streaming year, while i was choosing my class. i wanted to take up bio, that's why i say, i want triple science. then she was like. "huh?! bu yao lah, double science jiu hao, hen stress de lei." hahah, how cute she was, but i insisted on triple science, and, she was like "huh? ke yi ma? zhen de yao ma?" she confirmed with me so so so many times before i make my decision. Lol.

and, when i didnt do well in sec 3 and 4, and when its PTI. i remember, Mr Jo told her that im not doing very well, then she was like going " its all my fault lah, i didnt give her stress, didnt make sure that she do well, its my fault, its my fault. " i never forget those moments, i almost went crazy. it was actually my fault that i didnt actually study for my exams, and she's blaming herself. MAN, i tell you. from that day onwards, all i know is, i love my mum. yes i do. im so proud of her, she's like the craziest mummy on Earth. she dont blame me for not doing, but herself, she dont scold me, all she did was told me to work hard, all she want is to see me happy. oh, give me a good reason why i should not love her?

and in her msg just now, she included, "dont worry, be happy like mummy", and during mothers' day, i didnt get her a gift, i told her i was like buget, then i only wished her happy mummy's day through sms, and told her that i didnt get her a gift cause i'm buget. you know what she reply? "no gift nvm, if got heart, everyday is mothers' day. " then the next msg, she said, " dont worry no money, can use my atm". there, i almost went crazy, she's always asking me to use her atm's money to do this and that. but you know what? i dont want to. she worked so hard for our welfare, make sure that we follow the trend like other teenagers, she makes sure that i get a laptop for my poly, she makes sure that we get to go out for fun, she makes sure that we fill our tummys, she makes sure that we're happy with our lives.

that's how great she is, and she was. all she wants, is to see the smile on our faces, she wants us to be happy. she loves to tell me " dont worry, be happy", dont worry abt this, dont worry abt that. and, she is strong, yes she is. she never cries infront of us, although we can see the sadness in her eyes. all these years, she not only brought us up, she's still bringing the three of them up. yes, i know, she's working hard.

mummy, thank you, i love you. ( : thank you. i want to be like my mum. i'm so proud of her. she conquered single-parent-life. i want to bless her. i want Jesus in her life. i believe, there will be Jesus in her life, soon. :D