seriously, i feel like blogging. have been feeling kinda emo at night, due to the show. zhuan jiao yu dao ai. its by xiao zhu and da s. seriously, i think i've learnt something from this great show. first, life is unpredictable, but, if you escape from reality, you'll never know that will happen next. life is like a road with many junctions, and different directions. you'll never know what you'll meet until you turn towards the direction. you may not get things that you desire, but, dont turn back. there's no point escaping from reality. you still have a chance, the next junction, the next turning point of life. you still have to continue with the journey even if you mourn over it. take this tough journey and learn from it. and just hope that the next turn, will bring you something beautiful. dont throw bad memories away, keep them, which will constantly remind you of your mistakes, take that bad memory and educate yourself. you may say, everytime i turn, the outcome is bad. but i assure you, there will be a turn, that you'll really love. its okay if you dont get what im trying to tell you. but, all i want to say is, dont give up life. it is beautiful. if you dont like the current route that you're taking, change your direction when you reach the next junction.

remind your love ones that you love them. do not drag, for they may not be yours or be with you the next moment. cherish the moments that you spent with them, for they are blessings from Jesus. He bless you with family and friends, not for you to forget, but for you to cherish and love them. Yesterday night, i know. something happened. it was really my very first time, reminding myself that i'm His beloved with i feel condemned. at the moment that i told myself that. i felt peaceful. and a smile came to me. i know, i'm still loved by my Daddy God. i know, He is still there for me, and He will never be angry with me ever again. and yesterday, that was the very first time, i stop complaining about myself, and i fell in love with Him all over again. yes, i remembered, im still His beloved no matter what. i'm like a lil princess in His eyes and i know, something changed in me, again. you may ask what is it? at this moment, i still dont know. and i dont think i'll know what is it. but i really felt different.

dont get sick of living, for i tell you. every single day is a new begining, expect blessings to flow from Jesus, He is your excitement, your fun, your love, your friend. and He is always here with you. and therefore, your life will always be filled with all these, as long is He is here with you. and, once He entered your life, He NEVER LEAVES. For He so love you that He gave His son for you. and, because you are His beloved, He finds every excuse to bless you! ( : this is my favourite line. for i experienced it. i'm not able to have wonderful friends, nor will i be able to do well for my 'o's. i dare to say, on my own, i cant do it, but with Him, i can. with Him, i have lovely friends, and blessed results, with Him, my family bonds miraculously, with Him, i found a job with lovely adults who teach me real things in life. with Him, wo you xin fu. with Him, i feel like i'm the xin guang shan shan de da xiao jie, in that show.

i want to keep that show, forever in my memory, for this show, reminds me that i'm bless. and, because, XIAO ZHU IS SO SO SO CUTE! : D

goodbye my dear friends, good night, and enjoy life. ( :