anyway, i've collected my pay today. and i feel good abt it. 45.5$ for a day. not bad eh. and also. the office lift is sooo ulu. and makes me feel good. aha. took a pic. shall post it tml. anyway. met crystal and auntie before going there, for the class bbq i mean.
i saw DADDY AND MUMMY GUI TODAY! AND IM ELATED ABT IT! i miss miss miss them can. and i oh-so love them (: cause they treat me like humans. =x although they always call me E.T. hahahah. they ALWAYS know when im depress. that's why, they're daddy and mummy. hahaha. and i so love them.
anyway. i regretted not eating much just now. and im HUNGRY. oh bullshit. but blessedly. i've got beancurd at home! WEEEEEE. my favourite. and im tired. hahahaha. i had a good good talk with meh, then msg mummy. it made my mind more clear. and my eyes more pain. -.- RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. tomorrow is HARMONY concert. i always wonder why, they use this orbit name. performers, do your best tomorrow okay! BYEBYE!.
i finally cried out everything tonight. and it feels so so so great. you know. hiding it for the whole week isnt good. and letting it all out really makes me feel great. and thank you meh, for talking to me and listening to me rant. and mummy gui : you said, i live the lifestyle i want. and that is why. i hate it when people lie. i choose to hate it and i will be sad because i live the lifestyle i want. but i cant control everything. and when i know that someone lied, i cant help but to be disappointed. i've choose the way i want to live life. but others cannot fit into my life. and i cant fit into theirs. im still learning to be look things at a wider view. and change this damn mindset of mind. but i still dont understand, if i get to choose the way i want to live. why do i have to change it for some dumb reason? okay, what am i saying? i dont know, ahhh. whatever shit. i dont want to think anymore. im tired of that. good nights.
