exams are ending soon. 'o' levels are here. i practically didnt study for so many many papers. its like just dont want to work. sometimes you just cant choose your mood in doing things. but what the hell am i doing? i failed my chemistry mcq. for God's sake, its chemistry. im speechless, this midyear is so hopeless. i cant even make it in chemistry already. where can i survive in studies?

mummy's day is like this sunday. show your love to your mummy. hey you know what? you shall have a name. hahas. Vangie. you know why? this name means bearer of good news, so its like i hope, everytime when i come to you. its good news that i bring. i hope. HAHA. you know. its mummy day on sunday, and i miss my mummy. its going to be just another day without my mummy. do you still call it a mummy day still than? ever since i moved to this house, i felt so different. i cherish my mummy more, but still. i feel like she's still not mine. she's more like a auntie to me, and more like a mummy to my cousins. you may say that i regretted making such a choice of moving here, but still. i want to carry on. i dont know why. i just wanna to. thank God for the lovely frens yar? if not, i really wonder, how am i going to survive? mummy day. wad can i thank her? you mean i have to thank her for taking care of them instead of me? wells, its my choice. i'll just have to face it. i still love her though. we hardly can talk ten sentences per day. its so different from the past. hahas. the time still move on. therefore things change. i wish she will have a happy day. happy mummy day. love your mummy everyone. you know why? you're stuck to her for nine months before. you made her fat. when she's not suppose to. and most importantly. she do love and care for you. i said, my mummy cared, but in the way which i didnt like. too bad. but still she cared.

my dream, seemed like its not gonna be fulfilled. sighs, sometimes i feel like, i just wanna have a rich daddy, but i cant change facts that he's dead. but, im glad to say. i have Jesus as my Lord, my Daddy. but still, i still hope that he's alive.